Yesterday was really unfathomable for me

I broke down almost the whole day.

Once in the afternoon and once through the night.

I couldn't sleep until around 2am, only to wake up at 5am, and then at 9am.

Last night was the worst breakdown ever.

I just couldn't help myself, I cried and cried and cried.

My heart was in pain,literally. cried too much.

I don't know the reason why.

All I know was those wild thoughts that were racing through my mind.

It really was choking me up.

I told myself umpteen times before, that those were just figments

But to no avail

I really wanted a hug yesterday.

Just a warm simple hug, 

and a "Don't worry. I'm here for you"

Just that.

And if 

"Anything worth the tears is worth fighting for",

then I suppose my tears are really worth it.

To some extent.

I just hope Syahidah wont notice my swollen eye,

aftermath of crying.