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| Thursday, February 5 | 0 comments
SOBS!
i got scolded by ibu yesterday.. coz went home late. but its not like i returned home in the wee hours?! i was home at like 11pm! & i got that "you're a young lady.dont go home late" lecture. TIME & AGAIN! ibu,trust your daughter at least once, for that matter,on me staying out late. i can take care of myself & besides,im with syaff&syahidah (most of the time) and there's always a guy with us to protect us;faizal. And there was this msg from ibu. "call me now or i'll confiscate ur phone" so yea,out of fear i DELETED the whole of my inbox! why inbox?coz duh,if she confiscated it,she'll read everything. BUT,in the end she didnt'confiscate it.MY INBOX MSGS! in it stores many sweet messages.. and i deleted it! as sad as it sounds. i wasn't really sad. coz i believe that sweet msgs dun last long. though they serve as memories, the real deal comes when the sender itself shows sweetness to me. so yea,it comes,often and i mean really often.I LIKE!:D So i dont really mind the deleted inbox. coz there's always more sweet messages coming my way,right dear? But then,there's always that weird feeling ive been having these days. I keep on asking myself,if i trusted the right person. I sound pessimistic,i know. But these things happen to people every now and then. I get scared sometimes.I KNOW THIS PART IS IRONIC! (see the above para) Scared that you are just fooling around.hais. Scared of my WhatIf(s)! mainly,that im scared that you dont mean whatever you've said to me so far also,the fact that im worried that..aiya. should state it this way WhatIf; you were just playing around with me WhatIf; you just want me as a backing plan sort of thing WhatIf; you betray me or stab me in the back WhatIf; you said all those nice things for fun I know i shouldnt be thinking this way.but im scared thats all i know that i love you sincerely from the bottom of my heart. Shouldnt have those negative thoughts right! SHAZANA!! get a grip on yourself. nothing's bad gonna happen to you. just trust your intuition and trust him. and all will go well. hais.there.i've bared my thoughts out loud. seriously,i've been keeping this to myself. though this entry can be seen by everybody. i dont mind.so long as everything gets off my chest i.e sorrows and worries poured out but still,right now after baring out what i really feel sometimes it makes me think that im stupid stupid to have such weird thoughts i know im contradicting yet again but thats part of being a girl,contradictory so yea.i *slaps herself* and vowed never to spout such nonsense ever again:D then you might ask why am i posting the WhatIf(s)? This is part of my flow of words.Writer's flow.smth lyke that and it dawned on me that i shouldnt be so pessimistic. thus the positivities.so yea.I TRUST YOU,DEAR; Hmm.yea. ♥Valentine's Day♥ is around the corner,so it coincides with FD competition. hmm.maybe i should support my darling juniors. should i?lol hopefully they'll bring in good results. speaking of ♥Valentine's Day♥ what should i get for you? i also dont know. tiao. maybe just a big hug will do.HA! if i have the money, i might just get a few treats here and there for my friends. ♥ So,in advance, i wish everyone ♥Happy Valentine's Day♥!!  |
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