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| Saturday, February 7 | 0 comments
& i'm feeling down in the pits!
sobs.sobs.sobs. i want to go out. enjoy with my friends.live life the way it should be. but i can't. well,at least till nxt week? i hope ibu will dissipate the ban. coz,i want to go out! i miss everyone! and now i feel very nauseous! and i want to cry. serioulsy, i feel very sad.. how could i not be,when i cant see you or the rest? aarggh..just so you know this feeling's taking control of me;sadness just so everyone knows. im feeling very down. i need to destress. i need to go out. take in the fresh air and enjoy life. seriously; my heart is beating slowly.. my mind is in a whirl.. my thoughts are stuck to that moment.. everything seems in a standstill.. now,what im feeling now is akin to this person down here.  yes.this just shows that when im alone, i feel like crying coz there's no one with me. my family you might say? nah.age gap too far. so i mostly 'depend' on my friends. i miss everyone.really i do. i miss my uplines,sidelines,and downlines.. oops.that nauseous feeling is coming again. sad.depressed.down in the pits. ooh whats wrong with me? i'm always feeling sad these few days. i try to hide that from everyone. but it has since become much too unbearable. its like a rock fallen onto your chest. thats how intense my sadness is. people say the only way to cure your sadness is via eating chocolate. but there's one problem, i've no chocolate in the fridge. it has since been gone the last few days. i need chocolate i suppose. and to add on to my misery, ibu just ordered a big grandfather clock those antique ones which go ding ding ding every hour. why on to my misery? coz i always felt that grandfather clocks are soo antique that who knows,some haunted beings are in there. trapped spirits,no? yea,i might be over reacting but i hate big clocks going ding donging.. scary aspect of my life. hais.. my heart is aching.. i cannot tahan anymore already.. i should just end this entry now.. but before i go, here's a quote that might just lay an impact on everyone's heart.   .I.MISS.YOU.SO.MUCH. |
 Allah Family, Dearest, Friends What more can I ask for? ♥ Designer/codes: AddictedLove Basecodes: Niszke Uzana |
