I dislike my sister, period.

What's up with her these days?

Telling me of like every single guy that's interested in her?

Bitch.

Ah sheesh. My emotions, dang it.

Salam Alaik!

Emotions on a roller coaster ride these few days

Emotions that I myself had no control over

Ironic isnt it, contradicting isnt it

When in the first place, emotions came from within me

Every song played in mind now

Are in every way related to that solitary feeling

Bummer. Dang it. 

Dont know what's going on, dont even bother so

Having to go through irritating nights

With your sibling yapping on her rendezvous

Say, I just found out that this guy has a crush on me

And I was like, so what? And she would go, At Least I Have One.

People say, have patience, take in deep breaths

Yes, but my patience is running thin

Cant expect my delicate eardrums to hear her every yakking

Coz one day, I might just go poof,self mutilation,not.

Snapped at her for yakking on this topic every night

And what did I get in return? Another scolding, from a sibling.

Yes, maybe thats coz I snapped at her first

But hey, cant blame me, I'm bursting already.

Not only that, other things filled my mind too

About me,about you, about us, about them, about her, about him

About almost everything

And thinking of them causes tears to land on my cheeks 

Like every night. Bleargh.

Told myself not to think of the worst

But cant help it, it's just nature

Nature at its worst, nature at its best

So unpredicatable, so unfathomable

Songs after songs played in my mind

None of them revolved around sunshine

All revolved with anything but it

That just sums up how I've been feeling

Though I may seem to be happy all the time

Im still human, I do have my ups and downs

This doesn't come often as my happiness does

And I know that this time around, it's major

Me: When will I get to see the stars and moon again?

Teddy Bear: *silents*

Me: But of course, you're just a teddy bear.

Teddy Bear: *silents*

Me: *cries*