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| Tuesday, February 17 | 0 comments
been feeling very angsty nowadays.
i dunno why. could be due to pms.eergh! today,gonna talk about well in this case continue my trilogy on letting go. to let go of someone you love isnt an easy task. it takes time and more time. for example, you love that person and then suddenly,kaboom the other distant away `notice that im writing in say third person perspective. coz this has got nothing to do with me. im just writing ma.. and where was i yea,the other distant away no more nice things just plain thoughts and talk what more could the "victim" feel cept for hurt?pity that one.. the victim tried to be positive and kept on thinking that the other was just having a rough day but it has since been too much victim was treated like a stranger. so victim felt cheated and betrayed (??) so isnt it best for the victim to let go of the other though victim doesnt really know how the other is feeling? victim felt its best to let go even though victim doesnt really know the situation victim is fearful to ask the other "is there something wrong with you.just tell me straight if you've probs" so what more can the victim do but cry and feel hurt though not knowing the reason why, one might think that victim is having way too pessimistic thoughts but trust me,you wont know how bad victim is feeling right now. so might as well let go right? and to think this story coincides with a song a malay song by nurun nuwarrah , Kau Ingin Ku Miliki this stanza fully suits the above story, Berkali ku nyatakan ku sayangkan padamu Namun kau masih membisu Kau tak mengerti ingin kau ku miliki Kau menghancuri hati ini basically if translated it just means, well i edited out a bit though to suit my story better, ok it means, We sent out endless care love and sweet memories only to be suddenly shut off by your indifference and silence You dont understand how much it hurts me to be treated like this you've disappointed and hurt me,bad oh yea,that translation suits my story yea? hmm.im still writing my second story though its still in the works. so has that angsty feeling gone out yet. well NO! it didnt and this may sound random but while ironing clothes just now i just cried.dunno why tears rolled down my cheeks. and i just cried and cried. luckily ibu didnt sense anything amiss seriously,i just cried.cried and cried i dont know whats wrong my heart is feeling very painful lately and today was just the trigger! it suddenly dawned on me that what i feared most has indeed come and then the floodgates open crying senselessly. oh wells.looks like the teary eyed me is back. no hugs and no kisses; !SHAZANA |
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